Repercussions ~ Friday, November 14, 2025

I am sorry that I was ever born

am I an idiot as everyone
makes me out to be, stupid, not just dumb

sad that I cannot enjoy without scorn
observing sparrows chatter in bushes
rest assured, I do not possess a gun
rest assured, I have no intention, glum
yes, since childhood, clinical depression

treatment for decades, and yet, time rushes
horribly fast, a teenager, no more
accountability for my actions
to imagine that I could ever score

I was a child with intense reactions

was teased and left with intense repression
aspects of this life, truth, beauty, the good
seem beyond reproach, and so, I read books

every night, before I fall deep asleep
versions of the story, hollow as wood
ever since I was born, everything broke
rest assured, I got the dirtiest looks

born so long ago, quiet, not a peep
or maybe I was loud, I would not know
rest assured that I would still rather choke
needlessly on salt water, drunk on flow

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