Delusions of Grandeur ~ Wednesday, January 28, 2026

“If a child is isolated or neglected and they never develop a real connectedness to others and what they’re feeling, it becomes more and more difficult to internalize and process those experiences later in life.”

~ Psychologist Ramone Ford, PhD

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Because I did not choose my family
except no one gets to choose their birthright
clearly, my issues stem from my childhood
anti-social, a lack of empathy
understanding the feelings of others
suffering from emotions held too tight
explanations come much too late, no good

I am a broken man, a tortured child

destroyed by fathers, mothers, and brothers
if each person exhibits diamond mind
describe facets of personality

no one sees the future, we are all blind
only a few have capability
to see beyond the present, what is wild

choice appears metaphysical, to choose
how to decide between different options
of course, before conception, no one knows
or perhaps, everything is a blown fuse
sabotaged for a reason from the start
except speculation like adoptions

make situations seem like a tree grows
yes or no, bifurcated, straight or bent

forget the game of shame and blame, the art
as I write this essay as a poem
monster, I have become in my own mind
if I do no harm, as Rehoboam
life will not be without strife, I am kind
yes, but who am I, if not heaven-sent

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