Throwaway Doll ~ Tuesday, October 28, 2025

There once was a time, long ago, I dreamt
hopes, in this world, were not misbegotten
each day since, I have this sinking feeling
reality appears full of contempt
each day since I dreamt, I feel I was wrong

only now I see I have forgotten
nervous, chaotic energy dealing
cards at the poker table, I was right
each day to relinquish my dreams, so strong

wishful thinking to imagine my hopes
appear to matter to anyone else
simply erroneous, world full of dopes

apparently believe in a gift horse

take me out back and shoot me, so uptight
if you put me out of my misery
murder as compassion is nothing false
each day since I dreamt, my hopes have no pulse

little to see inside my treasury
only promissory notes and past debts
nothing to show but lack of discipline
guaranteed to fail, only cursory

attachments to adults who could not care
guidance more or less was without regrets
only children who succeed toe the line

I was told, I was never a good boy

despite my childhood, how I longed to dare
reel in my hopes and dreams, I am no one
each day since I dreamt, I failed to succeed
as my life passed by, I became a stone
my hopes and dreams became arms cut to bleed
to drain in a tub, just a worthless toy

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