Disentangled ~ Tuesday, September 1, 2026
Your death affected so many people only, at the time, I could not process until decades later, an old man now remembering your decision, simple done deal, maybe you saw no other choice even if I were happy, I confess as the years pass, I feel lost, I feel slow that I could not foresee how life plays out how after three decades, I found my voice acceptance of the facts is not easy forgiveness is even harder than loss forget what took place, I get so queasy embracing the impossible, I toss coins in the air, heads, I win, tails, I pout teddy bear gone, tears on my pillow, doubt empties the church, faith rings from the steeple dying at such a young age, if I knew somehow, nobody saw what was coming obvious in hindsight, like a dimple maybe you smiled the last time we hung out as if I could remember, I was blue nothing I could do to help you, humming your favorite tune, I never knew, no time perhaps, after six months, maybe, no doubt every single one of your friends ...