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The Enigma Complex ~ Tuesday, June 2, 2026

Language is a tool to create meaning Literally, I feel second day burn as if, I had a tough indoor workout nothing could prepare me for this level given, whatever comes, I cannot learn understanding has left me, an anchor answering the context without a doubt given such witchcraft as under a spell each symbol, I decipher as a code ignorance leaves me ignorant, a door slightly ajar, helps to explain this mess as a cacophony sounds like chaos take away one item, as if to bless old eyes with sight, I do not give a toss old eyes see the world before they erode left to make sense of sorrow, of my loss turn the page, this life of light and shadows only the blind make sense of the darkness create meaning out of chaos, a need religion is helpful for old widows each to their own, searching for a small bite as black as death within pure emptiness teach experience as parables bleed each person dry of money, this nonsense meaning creates out of logic, despite each person in need of a solid base as...

Praise him. ~ Monday, June 1, 2026

Glory be to God for dappled things Pied Beauty ~ Gerard Manley Hopkins Glory be to innocence, lost and found lost over the years, a little brown bear only nobody cares, once childhood past remember memories persist, unbound yet, they will do their best to show they care brilliant, I eat my feet and go running except, neither far can I run, nor fast toenails, black and blue, a fashion statement only if I could return to hunting Goe, and catche a falling starre, Get with child only if I could return to childhood decisively, never again, too mild forget all the books I have read, dead wood only if I could return to pigment remember my legs run around the track distance is the one goal, the old people ask why I run so far, a big runner perhaps, I'm only five-foot one, low stack perhaps, I got a pain in my neck, pop led to believe St. Ignatius steeple emits a tone only mites hear, dumber diatribes have been written for the news think about when my first novel wil...

Christianity on the Brown Line ~ Sunday, May 31, 2026

Jesus, Colleen, for real? What do you mean? everyone acts as if they understand son of a bitch, what am I doing here understanding nothing, nothing not seen suck it up, you met her, once is enough Colleen, you came by my work, grains of sand overflow the glass like suds in my beer leave me be, Jesus, what now do you want learned scholar, hidden in plain sight, rough edges appear natural, broken glass emerges from the ground like hot lava not unlike fire coals, do I dare pass for fuck's sake, what do you expect, Java only God knows, the holy spirits haunt reality for me, Fathers and Sons read another book of literature eat breakfast, never, get on with my day angry, nothing makes sense, the hot cross buns leftover from Good Friday, cold and hard What makes this religion, for all, a cure help me understand, Colleen, what you say ask me, will this matter in twenty years talk about walking the line, a glass shard difficult to remove, embedded, flesh of my flesh,...

Ode on the Death of a Favorite Cat ~ Sunday, May 31, 2026

The emptiness lies beside me in bed how what was there before is now no more energy, where does it go, after death enter the irreversible, misled maybe by past beliefs, the afterlife perhaps by reincarnation, a store time recycles lost souls, the final breath inspires non-attachment to sorrow non-attachment to suffering, the knife enters the body, a stick of butter simply gutted, the absence reigns supreme supremacy does not make things better love makes us human, fragile as a dream if I wake up and find nothing, Sparrow enlightenment is a meaningless game sudden-gradual illumination blooms out of right effort, do the right thing expect nothing in return, shame and blame set up each of us who expect results in my bed, a noise factory station disappeared never to return, birds sing enticing the other, a trap, we fall maybe we want love and death, without faults enter resurrection, I turn a leaf if not to believe in leaves in the books nothing but lightness, anot...

In the Antechamber ~ Saturday, May 30, 2026

The dead man walking sees before his eyes his whole life flash in a moment, he walks enters the antechamber, sits down, smokes diminished capacity, a disguise enter into a pact, a narrative as it goes, difference seeks out she who talks differently but listens, was it a hoax maybe, he will never know, what makes sense as the minutes pass, time is up, to give necessarily, unnecessary windows to view the imminent future as the moment creeps, opinions vary little does he understand, with no cure kindness keeps the skipper out of nonsense in an instant, minutes really, death comes no one else blinks, business as usual given the phrase, commit a crime and die see the past, shut it down, with all the slums enter the age of discontent, hell-bent entertainment, anything goes, how cool spring seems outside, why did he make her cry brutal affect, up the river, sever even forever ties, time, heaven-sent forget the man, left alone, in the box only, he seems quite tame, now,...

Sacrifice upon an Altar, a Ram ~ Friday, May 29, 2026

As if this lifelong life were all along An afterlife,… ~ A.E. Stallings from The Fiftieth Danaid --- As if, at the end of this life, we die such is this world, a giant question mark if this world itself were heaven or hell for money, we are told, one big fat lie this may be it, one life to live, then done how anyone could believe, (just a lark) in good faith, in something else, ring a bell something about an angel getting wings livelong, livestrong, make money, or make none in time, we outlive all our friends, alone view this life as magic to celebrate empty of all meaning, talk on the phone little else left to do, why get irate or get upset over nothing, what brings nervous little people to the ocean given outer space is a sea, in search life, extraterrestrial life, a joke in this world, they rob us blind, emotion fills in the gaps, entertainment, we seek exactly this, why be left in the lurch were we the other animals, how broke empty coffers at church, an offe...

how to live in harmony with nature ~ Thursday, May 28, 2026

I kiss her goodbye, why should I cry, why karma is not kindness, not intentions if the body is interconnected silence across the web, I say goodbye suffer the confusion, I understand honestly, nothing in this world, pensions emptied through fraud, whoever inspected religion as the new faith in the web goodness deliberates on falling sand of the hourglass, the hours that pass obviously become days, weeks, months, years decades become time lost, lost to the jazz blue notes bent, heaven sent, why all the tears yesterday, I put down my cat, the ebb enters back into the flow, Tsunami where did she go, she went, went with the flow how can I not shed a tear in public yet, society frowns, as the kami shudder to think humans show their feelings how with the spontaneous overflow of emotions recollected to click under conditions of tranquility liberty to appeal to the dealings determined before birth, circumstances I cannot understand, to interpret creatively, tea leaves,...