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Unspoken ~ Wednesday, February 11, 2026

Believe whatever your heart desires Before neurodivergent, or spicy even my neurotypical brother let predatory behavior govern individual acts with an icy eye on the prize, sadistic playfulness viewed in hindsight, judgment as the other egregious as books of history burn witness the world change, too little, too late honesty, the whole truth, as wakefulness approaches past events, careful to cast the dice with a mindful eye not to roll emergent possibilities to last virtually beyond heights of a knoll ever-present as a fortune to hate remember, not to roll craps, then again you choose your own destiny, your own voice owns the reinvention of past events understand and move on, if and then, when remembrance of things past, not for the best help me, somebody, help me, as my choice envelopes the future, for all intents and purposes, to make sense of the rules regulations to keep us in check, test triggers for trauma, pain guides decisions develop as a broken man, d...
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Opaque Window ~ Monday, February 9, 2026

To cause unnecessary, undue harm of course, we are only human, to feel errors in behavior communicate relative discomfort, sound the alarm restless merchants of disease and distress ignorant of a banana to peel sickness by a lack, how to mitigate harm, hurt feelings, public discourse, as words understand in themselves tones to address malarkey, to say less and bite a tongue animosity is just frustration no sex, no wonder, step down just one rung traverse the playing field, the cessation of suffering, the goal, observe the birds fail to augur through divination, speech ordained by the gods of business as sound realize mistakes in practice too late grounded as prey by a bloodsucking leech interest lost as effort accrues in cost vision in the moment to release bound efficient cause to pass through a blocked gate drown out the noise around a distraction instructed by a good, beautiful ghost veer towards the center as to enter impossible outcomes, in truth, a right ...
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On the Head of a Pin ~ Friday, February 6, 2026

You told me never to change, so I am only eighteen years old for forty years understand this life is a curse, unstuck tucked in, under the covers, little lamb only I grew wiser, so, so sorry leave me to my sorrow, so full of tears despite such happiness, such a dumb fuck makes his way, full of luck, sincerity effaces the ego without worry negate the past, eyes cast downward, too hard ego creates sorrow and suffering visions of past and future, a blank card ego relates horror as buffering reverse psychology, austerity torments within spirituality ordinary people understand faith characters in a book play as actors how could you know substantiality adverse to ideas of the Universe nothing but an analogy, a wraith given the keys to the kingdom, factors emerge as conditions, circumstances surface as brutal facts, can we rehearse only the final scene, the audience I observe has no clue, if their surprise absorbs the narrative, this much I sense makes perfect sense,...
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The Inscrutable Vagaries of Love ~ Thursday, February 5, 2026

All of old. Nothing else ever. Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.” ― Worstward Ho ― Samuel Beckett The Inscrutable Vagaries of Love Test after test, I fail, the point being...true love is a myth for others how then was I to know, was I supposed to know how it feels, so alone each month, each week, each day, no better, up and down, as the pendulum swings invest in family with time and energy, but nobody bothers nobody has the time or energy to care, I look back and I cry suck it up, people die and we move on as if a dog, given a bone creates such a focus to forget all sorrow, angels without their wings receive and deliver letters and packages, messages from beyond until understanding faces a paradox, I was supposed to try try harder, fail better, I was supposed to know that my mom will die soon as old as Jesus Christ, someone else, I believe in whom I have no faith babble from the pulpit, but I digress, tangent, a toe in a lagoon let...
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Your Sister Has No Ass ~ Wednesday, February 4, 2026

Hi, I am the author of the book they forced you to read for English class in hindsight, I offer an apology from the bottom of my heart I cannot imagine your misfortune to skim and not enjoy this work arguably, it is my best work but I say that talking out my ass maybe you would prefer to fuck the girl next door or play video games trust me, I was a kid once, too, back in the day, lovemaking is an art however, if rabbits can do it, so can you, you're young, don't be a jerk egregious as it sounds, I am not Pacino, I feel too old to fuck authority means less when power is water through a sieve, set in frames understanding movies better than stupid books, I see why you like sports time spent out on the pitch with mates and supporters, better than robbing banks hopelessly in love with Amanda in London, the skirts on tennis courts ordinary women, they pay you attention, as you enter think tanks restless for excitement, you take up skydiving, four-leafed clover for luck ...
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Go! ~ Monday, February 2, 2026

Do people not get it, the why to life Despite a strange childhood, moving from place to place, no time to settle down ordinary people come and go, come and go, no one around for long perhaps my parents seemed like escaped criminals from behind prison walls everyone comes and goes in this world and beyond, this circus has one clown only one clown, a child, the boy cannot but cry, he makes his parents proud people do not get it, the why to life is love, the how in life is wrong long ago in Goa, from Alto Porvorim, my grandmother, her goals eclipsed by her marriage to my brother's dad's dad, who died when he was young no, not his dad, our dad, we are, of course, siblings, unless behind a cloud obscured from conception, the reason why distance becomes a central theme take family as myth, the House of Atreus, with Tántalos to start generations depart from history, take part in the mundane grand scheme egocentric leaders acting as hēgemōn know how to throw a dart tra...
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Delusions of Grandeur ~ Wednesday, January 28, 2026

“If a child is isolated or neglected and they never develop a real connectedness to others and what they’re feeling, it becomes more and more difficult to internalize and process those experiences later in life.” ~ Psychologist Ramone Ford, PhD --- Because I did not choose my family except no one gets to choose their birthright clearly, my issues stem from my childhood anti-social, a lack of empathy understanding the feelings of others suffering from emotions held too tight explanations come much too late, no good I am a broken man, a tortured child destroyed by fathers, mothers, and brothers if each person exhibits diamond mind describe facets of personality no one sees the future, we are all blind only a few have capability to see beyond the present, what is wild choice appears metaphysical, to choose how to decide between different options of course, before conception, no one knows or perhaps, everything is a blown fuse sabotaged for a reason from the start e...
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