The Inscrutable Vagaries of Love ~ Thursday, February 5, 2026

All of old. Nothing else ever. Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.”

― Worstward Ho ― Samuel Beckett

The Inscrutable Vagaries of Love

Test after test, I fail, the point being...true love is a myth for others

how then was I to know, was I supposed to know how it feels, so alone

each month, each week, each day, no better, up and down, as the pendulum swings

invest in family with time and energy, but nobody bothers

nobody has the time or energy to care, I look back and I cry

suck it up, people die and we move on as if a dog, given a bone

creates such a focus to forget all sorrow, angels without their wings

receive and deliver letters and packages, messages from beyond

until understanding faces a paradox, I was supposed to try

try harder, fail better, I was supposed to know that my mom will die soon

as old as Jesus Christ, someone else, I believe in whom I have no faith

babble from the pulpit, but I digress, tangent, a toe in a lagoon

let it be known, faithless as the Wandering Jew, as an eternal wraith

eternally alone, look back on decisions, skip stones across a pond

vacuous mindlessness, compassion is the word as photons from the start

artistic endeavors drop bombs on Gabistan for Mr Gabidar

given this illusion and the gift of the gab, I keep silent, say less

ancient languages speak in tongues, flicker as snakes taste as chemicals dart

romantically, era after era, we are confused and deluded

inexplicable change wanders unexpected, never close, never far

exchange a look, a glance, ever so long ago, infatuation, bless

sinister, malicious, underhanded leftist revolutionaries

order a cheese pizza for delivery, lost and beaten, as I bled

for the meaning of life and love, nowhere, unseen, unless you beat a stick

longingly on a fence, rot iron, tuned like bells, tubular inside waves

only my mother knows to settle her affairs before she dies, a brick

violently thrown, breaks a window, close the door, opportunity saves

eternity for last, the best never the first, fate is for the fairies

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