Horror-struck ~ Saturday, April 4, 2026

All about my wife, all about myself

As I could not understand, then, but now
leftovers in the refrigerator
love comes with a flash of lightning and goes

as quickly as it came, as if a blow
browbeaten into submission, silence
obey the rules, observe, and learn later
understand the hidden, a river flows
time is of the essence, wasted, now gone

misery, as they say, loves nescience
yet, I am culpable for my actions

wonders never appear to leave a mark
in the brevity of marriage, factions
form against happiness, what set the spark
embittered by a choice, a voiceless swan

ask not for wedding vows, ask to be strong
let go, move on, do not reflect on time
let the past be the past, divorce in place

alas, say less, say nothing, I was wrong
by a mile to think, even imagine
others and myself were alike, my crime
understood as a vice, to seek disgrace
to sabotage our happiness, our luck

muck about, ask for more, a twisted grin
yet, feelings and thoughts are not deeds, the bonds
snapped, in hindsight, how stupid could I be
everyone makes mistakes, as she absconds
left with nothing but my humility
for others, pride, but for me, thunderstruck

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