Use The Force ~ Monday, April 27, 2026

Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

~ Dylan Thomas

Dysfunction since before my conception
only as perceived by my perception

noise, the beautiful distractions, I wince
only to waste energy and lose time
tone down the attitude, learn to act chill

guess I am not the chosen one, a prince
only in the set up, boy scouts prepare

govern the mind, the brakes stop on a dime
empty stomach, hungry, ready to kill
nothing but obstructions that block the way
tell me to remove obstacles, I dare
lift the whole world with a fulcrum, the point
exactly, to pivot, support, use force

intentionally, observe where the joint
necessarily fits, follow the course
time connects all events, as if to say
only to understand failure and move

thaw bitterness until ready to cook
hatch the fertilized eggs, and leave the rest
abandoned by mapmakers as to prove
time and again, the way is for the few

goonies need not apply, given they took
orders without question, worst than the best
obscenities fly like starlings at dusk
divisions appear natural, no clue

natural as monkeys, what does this mean
if to fear death, I do what I can, cope
given God is greater than all, I lean
hopelessly on the book, Hope Against Hope
takbīr, Allāhu ʾAkbar, wrapped in husks

Religion informs my sorrow, I run
abandoned by belief, by faith in birds
given, I grew up Roman Catholic
everywhere, I see suffering, no fun

reason means nothing but clearly to think
again, did I choose this life, unlike words
given to wake me up, alcoholic
excess, welcome to my childhood, I need

answers beyond religion, yes, I drink
given proclivities in my family
answers never arrive in time, too late
inadequate instruction, happily
nothing lasts forever, not even fate
stung by horseflies, disappointed, I bleed
tragic first world problems, I get over

the mundane reality of this mess
how success evades me, why I bother
even to care, let go, undercover

darkness, my bride, the sinister, left hand
yet, the path rejects me, dysfunction bless
ignorance, hatred and greed, I gather
nickels and dimes, dead-end jobs, no career
given the old boys club, the falling sand

objects of mercy, pity, sympathy
forgotten virtues of benevolence

thrash about and gnash my teeth, loyalty
honestly, to dysfunction, violence
emptiness as a rule, the meat I sear

lessons learned, never again, take a breath
initiate the process of slow death
given, the metronome of deception
humanity, as a blip on the screen
tough call, are ideas colorless and green

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