Why remember, nobody really cares ~ Thursday, April 30, 2026

I hate this life, wish I were never born

I woke up too early, at 4 a m

hungry and tired, I showered and dressed
as my time conflicted with my girlfriend
terrible beauty, the given, a gem
endlessly in pain and sorrow, the point

thirsty for irrelevance, as you guessed
history consumes my future, the end
isometric as horror flows in waves
simple connections flex at every joint

life swings like a pendulum in moments
in this world, arbitrary and random
for chaos as conceived within events
emulates this, a double pendulum

watches a tsunami come and go, saves
ignorance, a birthright, humanity
shuffles their feet, as if with little sleep
honestly, hypocrisy reigns supreme

I cannot remember insanity

without effort to resolve perspective
effort to seek context, draw me a sheep
remember to say please, is this a dream
each moment flows through every point in time

nothing ever seems neutral, Detective
empires rise and fall, all is in flux
virtue as Arête, social control
emptiness as a property, a hoax
religion is a game, what is the goal

between birth and death, to stop on a dime
observe the scheme, no regrets, game over
remember each blunder, mistakes to plumb
not too deeply, then go undercover

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